Hello Liz,
Welcome to Psych Central!
I'm glad that you have some good things going on in your life.
Did something happen to you when you were about 11 years old to set this all off?
I think it would be helpful for you to talk with someone about how you are feeling.
It might be helpful to talk to a doctor, or counsellor about having some counselling.
Take care.
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