Well that's a good start Derek. And yes I don't know all the details, it was the wanting to cheat while she was in the hospital for a sui attempt that I had trouble wrapping my head around.. But I wouldn't know where the desire to do so comes from. I think exploring these things would be really good for you, and like DH said would help you find your own happiness in life as well, or contentedness I prefer to call it.

Does your wife have a therapist as well?

And yes of course we will support you in this, any way we know how!