Dear FM,

n Wed, Nov 21, 2012 at 7:53 AM, wrote:
I'm regressing in my head conversations to you - whiny, little kid voice. Why? I hate it. I've been past that stage for a couple of months now. I know it's spiraling around, but why now?

The need to be held gets to be to much. I can quiet the want, though not the need - blah! Lets go into the New Year having finished this phase. Deal?

Dear GTGT,

It's a deal.

As to the why now? Couple of possibilities. 1) The interaction with the group leader, and her need to force you to blame it all on mother (i.e. be a whiny little kid). 2) Interaction with dad - separating you from him i.e. it's not about me. While this may seem like a small thing, it is in fact a huge step emotionally. So, the system reacts and tries to re-establish what it has known/what is familiar.

Stay focused as much as you can on the positives - let the sunshine in. And, remember that no matter how much you slip you will recover, and far more quickly than previously.

Remember, whiny little kid is looking for reassurance, comfort, etc. See if you can give her that - do not reject her just because she is being whiny. She needs unconditional love. Reach out to her, draw her in, hold her. When she feels safe again she will stop whining.

***2) Dad asked me to call him. Time difference would have required me to call him at 1:00 A.M. My judgement said call tomorrow. I did not follow orders. Bad daughter. No, it was not about him.

FM, I'm having a splendid day, yesterday too, despite the above. Unfortunately, i had neck and shoulder that was excruciatingly painful last night. I know this physical pain is really how I am processing the group. Dad stuff doesn't seem to be the issue. Despite the physical pain this is the best emotional Thanksgiving I've ever had. YEA for me!

I am thankful for:

My loving son

My parents, brothers and their families

My little students

All that I have

And you FM, because you helped me open my eyes to see that I have so much to be thankful for.

Happy Thanksgiving

Love,

GTGT








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