Welcome...I agree that you have been through so much and have survived. You have been loved, were married and I would think that chances are you will love and be loved again. You may not see the qualities that others see in you and you never know what may happen. There are a lot of virtual 'hugs' and such compassion on this site so please know you are definitely not alone. I lost my job and my marriage is in a shambles due to depression/bipolar so I can identify with the need for love. With all that you have been through I would think you also have a lot of compassion and could offer some support to those in need here...hugs and stay in touch.