I guess that makes me wonder what the meds are for if they are making you feel crazy??? I'd rather have hallucinations than *feel* crazy. Do you know what I mean? I can see things/hear things but feel like I'm still in the driver's seat so to speak... Hell, even when I was totally delusional I actually felt really good. Most stable I ever felt mood wise in my whole life. I thought I was "cured" from depression or whatever at that time. (How weird is that?)

But I don't know, if the hallucinations are telling you to do bad things, that maybe isn't good either.... It's so confusing! I don't want you to be feeling like you're losing your mind. I hate that feeling!