It's so scary they are so close to the house I know they aren't shooting at me but I can't block out the sound or the idea they are so close. I have music on but it's not really helping. I hate guns.
I know they are a tool but it a tool that can kill and I just get so afraid. I still get nightmares about the times I had those things happen. I can still see it and hear it as clear as day. I just want to hide right now. I can't believe it's legal to shoot so near but I asked my lawyer friend and guess its legal. I'm afraid to talk to them. He has a huge rifle.
My poor dog his last owner shot at him spin think that's some of it anything that looks remotely like a gun or sounds makes him charge toward the sound or object barking. Mostly though with a object it has to be pointed at him his doggie friends or me. I'm sure he picks up my fears though too. I know he'd protect me then again I'd protect him first if possible. We are both very very much alike he also has issues with men as do I. I truely would do anything for him and he would me we are very connected to each other emotionally it's like our thoughts mimic each other at times. Weird I know. I just truely adore him we've both been through hell. I saved him but he did me too. He was like Cujo when I first got him he's done so well his behavior now is SO much better then three years ago. I
I rush I could talk to them I'm just afraid to do so besides my dear of the darn gun I'm also afraid to talk to people even on my best days.