it can be a struggle with rational vs. irrational going on in side, especially when the irrational voice seem to be louder. keep reminding yourself of the rational thinking... over and over and over, if you have to. that's what i have to do.
my irrational thinking got strong 'cause i kept listening to it and latching on to it, making myself miserable. I can't control the thoughts that come into my head - but i can control whether or not i give it more power than it deserves. and if it's a thought that makes me hurt inside, i strive to just let the thought exist... then fade away. don't know if this'll help, but thought i'd share.

Starry Night