I thought of that, but (if you can't tell) I'm a workaholic. It's hard for me to accept less of anything that I put my name on, which I would have to do to allow another individual to share the responsibility of running that business. The product would invariably be less than what I expected which I know from experience. It takes years to train an individual with the interpersonal skills and motivation to make it work. The actual labor is of comparatively little importance.

I think, for the most part, I'm simply unhappy with my progress thus far down this different road I'm on. I don't think I'm being patient enough, or applying myself dutifully enough to the areas that can support a sense of accomplishment. When you're taking care of a spouse that is going to die soon it's easy to get wrapped up in a fatalistic sense of worth: nothing I do seems to change things because she's still going to die. I can only prolong, and qualitatively change that experience.

The same is true for caring for my son. The road is long and little steps forward are so often accompanied by what feels like big steps backwards.

I just have to learn to accept my job as simply a job and not a part of my identity. I need to work on approaching my potential in ways that are appropriately adaptive to my situation and support rather than detract from my financial success.

I very much appreciate the thought, though. Thanks for being supportive. I do appreciate it.