I have a bad anniversary coming up. It's the anniversary where my ex boyfriend sexually assaulted me and a little girl. It was terrible. That was 4 years ago and it still feels like it was yesterday.

I've already started going downhill. I'm just a mess. I still can't talk about it without feeling like I could've done something more than just unsuccessfully trying to get away. I hate that man! I hate what he made me do and what he made her do! It still feels like it just happened. I don't know how I'll ever get over this.

I mean I tried everything to get away...nothing worked...he was too strong! I shouldn't write all this...I don't want to upset anyone. I hate crying over this.