You are writing my story, man.

I am so burdened down by my own self-consciousness about my own human condition and my bpd condition.

Also, the fast thoughts in my own head.

Can't relax. Can't get a decent night's sleep.

Feeling like I simply am never good enough.

Or feeling like I have to prove myself worthy all the time, esp by being more than human.

Feeling so broken down, henceforth my username. I really don't feel so beautiful, actually, but my mentor says I am all the time.

Maybe I do more than I realize, but as a bpd person, I don't feel it. I don't realize it at all.

thanks for this. Your post deserved (in my opinion) more than just thanks.

Carol,

mere fellow person-with-bpd, no one special, who simply needed to relate to this thread.