How can you be sure that it was feeling that you were a success was the false impression rather than feeling like a failure now? In reality, it's never so black-and-white. We all have many failures and many successes. You have been successful at many things. I don't know a lot about you, but I know you have a wife and a daughter who love you. Aren't those successes? Don't let your illness (as depression is) lie to you. It can be treated! Don't give up.

<font color=orange>"If we are going to insist that people pull themselves up by their own bootstraps, we must ensure that they have boots."</font color=orange>