I honestly feel I was / am a better, more involved parent off drugs. I've always been a more up than down gal. Yes financially we were worse but my relationships were stronger. I'm 1000x more sensitive so being a care giver to my husband, and dealing with family I don't feel I'm strong enough for. I doubt I'll ever be strong enough stable. How do I slow down? I feel like being medicated is costing me my family and friends. Doesn't my son and husband deserve the best even if it's un-medicated?