When I told my mum, I felt the same.
My mum blamed herself and that was hard.
It took time
But the good thing was mum did try to understand, and I found I hurt less because she was watching.
And the hurt in her face I couldn't bare. It made me stronger not to hurt because I didn't want her to hurt because of me.

I hope you too have a good out come from telling your mum. And she gives you the love and support you need.

((Hugs))