Thank you so much for replying.

I'm not on any meds, I have never taken any. I know for sure I was 100% fine about a couple of months or so before the trip. I don't know exactly when this started, I only really noticed when I was there. I wouldn't have noticed I wasn't enjoying things like I should because I almost never do anything REALLY exciting here. It's mostly just normal stuff.

It's been almost a month since I'm back from the trip. At first I felt like I was improving some, now I'm definitely going the other way. I'm starting to actually feel sad and depressed so maybe that's what I have. Why, I have no idea, I should have been beyond excited during the trip and for months after while I enjoyed the memories I made and saw the pictures, videos, etc.

Not that I hated the trip, but I felt mostly numb. And while I remember most things that happened, it's like they didn't happen to me, there are no feelings attached.

Maybe I should just go to a psychiartist and just take meds. I thought this forum would be a good place to ask for help and talk, because I find talking about it helps some, but it seems like there aren't a lot of posters here and I guess in my problem isn't serious enough, even though I feel like crap. I guess I need to find an alternative.

Thanks again for trying to help.