Hang in there, whenwillitend.

I have been through that before. I wasn't taking meds, but I was going to therapy and reading self help books. And doing other things to try and get over the depression.

And one day you feel like you are healed, like you will never feel like crap again. But it can happen. Don't be discouraged though, you made a lot of progress and if you were able to feel good before this, you will again.

I know it's irritating and it seems so unfair, at least I think it's unfair. Everyone else I know just gets to live their lives carefree and only worry about what they are going to wear the next day or maybe how to pay their bills because they spent too much on parties, clothes, beer, whatever. That's the extent of most of their problems. They are never depressed, lucky them.

But it is what it is, even though it's a pain to deal with depression, anxiety, and whatever else we have to deal with, it does makes us stronger and better people, usually.

When you replied to my thread you mentioned children, I don't know if you meant you have kids or your future kids, but in any case, try to be strong for them. It will pass. Even people who are not depressed do not feel 100% happy all of the time. Even if you are 100% healed you will have bad days (maybe not as bad as this, but when you are used to being happy and not depressed, anything will seem bad).

I find that what helps me the most and what helped me overcome panic/anxiety/depression the last time I had it bad, was to keep myself busy. Or at least my mind. Even if I didn't want to see anyone, I would sometimes when I didn't feel so bad. And when I was home alone I would watch a lot of movies, and also youtube videos that I found really interesting. It took my mind off my problems for hours. I specially like watching the Shaytards, because to me, they are such a happy family, it made me happy for a few minutes to watch their videos. I watched them for hours and as silly as it may be, I think that's what helped me the most. Not saying this will work for you, but maybe try to find something that will have that effect on you.

I don't know if this will help, but I hope it does.

And if you feel like talking to someone feel free to just post here or PM and I will do my best to reply quickly. I would have replied to your thread right away, but I was giving up on this forum since I had posted something and had not replies at all for over a day. Then for some reason I decided to try again and saw your reply, and then I looked for your lasted thread.