mum jumped on a plane to come help me at court.

she is the sweetest little woman I ever met I don't know how she does it?
she just does


I so love her so much and I hardly see her and when I do I cannot function i want to be a good son but I am crap!

I am a crap son!
she is a beautiful mum!

my illness just gets worse....can't handle intimacy
I would kill everybody just to keep her alive...

and yet I cannot cope

one day she will leave forever and I will die of starvation on her grave