Reread my post. You're missing my saying stability can come with or without meds. The OP posted in favour of instability when she stated: "I don't like being stable" and " I'd rather be small and have relationships than sane". I just don't think, as a parent, that shooting for instability and insanity is a luxury a parent really has. I completely understand her thinking, but even she titled her post, "Know it's irrational but . . ." I'm simply agreeing with her title and pointing out the realities of her situation that she may be wanting to ignore but probably needs to keep in mind before she makes a rash decision that could cause larger problems.