The reason I stop. . . it because of my internal rage monster. I can't handle the stress of keeping this house when the kids give so much push back. I feel backed into corner and that opens the door to my internal rage monster.

I think I need to say that. . . I can't cope with all things at once. I just can't. I try. . . I get on top of things then without fail the kids will fight then something will break or spill or the car will break down. I can't cope. Don't know how.