i call that my defence.. you cant hurt me if i dont let you in! its hard and im learning to not let that happen as much as i can.. i get pretty mad and frustrated when i have asked for help and that is the one thing i cannot do!!!.. but when i do.. seems ever yone would rather walk around me like im not even there or even talk to me for that matter.. yesterday, no one spoke to me till 10 at night.. I LIVE IN A HOUSE WITH 4 ADULTS!? im a kind person and i think of every one first.. if you asked me for my last 20 dollors.. i would give it you to you.. if you were cold i would give you my jacket.. but i dont see that in return in anyway with my so called family or freinds here..