My boyfriend and I have never agreed on his porn usage. i Cant telll you how many times we have fought over this. His porn usage makes me feel terribly insecure. It bothers me so much. He has told me that he sees nothing wrong with it and will never change. I have tried to live with it for the sake of holding our family together but I recently found out that he waits till I fall asleep at night, watches porn then wakes me up to have sex. I confronted him and he apologized and says he wont look at porn before having sex with me anymore.

I am hurt and I feel used. I cant look at him without feeling completely disgusted with him. Dont I deserve more than this? Are all men like this?

I am tired of feeling so bad...... like i am not good enough for him and NOW I feel used, like he has to look at someone else to have sex with me.

I have not let myself go, Im still thin and attractive. I havent denied him what he needs. Why ?