Hello,
I am 18 i have suffering From severe major depression From 9 Months. Since then I Have Been never the same i just want to Reach out To people i dont want to Feel lonely.

Before Two weeks I Went to a Psychiatric and she Diagnosed me with Clinical Depression, and Major Depression which are causing very high anxiety and panic attacks. Since then my Depression has Become Increased I Just felt like a big loser. I really Hate what i have Become :/ I Lost almost all of my friends i failed in school my parents are fed up with me i Became lifeless. The doctor prescribed faverine and lexomanil Both antidepressants But am really scared of pills am scared of them just scared of their side effects.

I have these feelings,symptoms and fears i just want to know if anybody can relate

I always have High Blood pressure and pressure in the head and sometimes low blood Pressure
I feel Hopeless like there's no way out like am stuck in this state of mind forever
I see the world more darker its like everything is dark and creepy
I recently have been losing lots of hair am so freaked out
Probably the Worst symptom is fear of death. I always think about death 24/7 i cant shake these thoughts about death off. I feel like am going to die soon or something bad is going to happen

am just lost and scared

I Never had suicidal thoughts or tried to hurt myself Because i believe in god. But i just want to be happy again

Thanks For reading i really am lost