I want to see him all of the time and not at all. We had a little tiff over scheduling but it stirred up a lot of things in me.

For starters, why do I have to be the one to call when we have a falling out - which I hate. But, he always sees my side of the argument and lets me redeem myself - which I love.

Wny do I always feel guilty after we argue and fear losing him and feel a need to apologize which I hate. But he knows not to take advantage of me in my sometime fagile state - which I love.

Why does he always seem to know the best time to bring something up that I don't even think is on the radar - which I hate. But, he seems to prepare me for whatever comes up - which I love.

Why do I care so much about someone I hardly know - which I hate. But why does someone take the interest in my well-being like he does - which I love.