Hey T,

After 7 sessions, I finally didn't feel like complete garbage after the last one - when you told me that you disagreed with me & that you don't feel like you're just wasting your time during our appointments.

But the next appointment is in four weeks, and they're usually 3 weeks apart. If you're that booked up, do you really think you're going to help me make any progress? How can you care? How can you even remember me? It seems like other people have sessions every week! I dunno - would that help me or kill me?

I'm still wondering if I made the right decision in cancelling the appt. with the other guy to keep seeing you. But I still think the situation would be the same with him - heck, he's got that PhD after his name - I'd only think I was bothering him more than I think I bother you.

So, I'll see you again in a few weeks. I'll totally stress out about it for a week or so ahead of time. I'll be a complete nervous wreck during the session. You'll tell me to think of my strengths again, like you always do. I'll feel like garbage afterwards. Lather, rinse, repeat.

I still just want to disappear.

But, I have 5 days off of work, and it's time to cook a turkey. I can do that.