and now I feel like a fat pig. I had a bowl of cereal this morning and then one normal plate of food. I don't like it one bit. I feel so freakin fat that I now want to restrict all day tomorrow and the next day too. I can't do that though because my mom will be with me to make sure that I eat. I don't know how to get over this feeling. I didn't even enjoy dinner this year. I so badly want to call MCED, but it doesn't exist anymore. I could call my T, but she is busy with her family and I don't want to ruin her holiday, and I don't think that feeling this way is a true crisis. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I am so FAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!