(((( Starry Night ))))

I'm sorry things are so hard for you right now. Glad that you talked to T and that it helped. I hate that you're still on this emotional rollercoaster with regards to your T being away.

Maybe you can talk to T about some strategies to help you through the down times. Maybe she can write you an email specifically with support for when you go through those feelings of abandonment, a note that contains reassurance of what's real - to help ground you in the present. Something you can reach out for when you need it.

I know that when I have those moments of feeling down and out, I go back to old emails between me and T - and it sometimes helps.

(( HUGS ))