(((((((((((Jan))))))))))) I know the feeling, sweetie. My mom is the same way. When I was inpatient a couple of years ago, my sister (the one who is giving me so much trouble now) called the family to let them know. My mom called the next day and told me that, and this is a quote, "You shouldn't have thoughts like that, dear. God doesn't like that."



She's happy to tell me everything wrong with her, but doesn't care what's going on with me. And it's been that way my whole life. But there is still this little part of me who really wants a nice, loving, nurturing mommy. I bang my head all the time against the brick wall of rediscovering constantly that I'm never going to get it, no matter how old I am. You might be running up against the same thing.

Tell your mom off (at least in your head) and lean on us!! We love you plenty.

Love, Candy