Lexicon78, I believe I feel what you’re going through, I truly do. My ex. is always on my mind; she’s the fist and last thought on my mind each day. I work with my ex. and it’s gotten to the point where I can’t look at her without breaking down. If you can, let some distance grow between the two of you, and keep busy. If you care about her as much as I believe you do, it’ll only prolong the anguish for you if you keep reopening that wound with contact. She is not worth taking your own life. You will meet other people and feel loved again. Surround yourself with family and friends and people who love you. Time heals all wounds.