i think you are trying to as how do you make it OK with your body and mind to do so when everything tells you not to? sorry if i am way off about this . i have no idea and it it a great question you should ask your T about .i hope there are some answers her from people who have been able to get over that hurdle. i have yet to.sorry i could give you no real answer tiger but i do know what you are dealing with .it is so so hard