I am an alcoholic and have a mental illness, and I just lost my soul mate and wife of 22 years, married for 11 years. I need emotional support. I am safe, just mourning and grieving my better half. She died last week from blood clots in her upper chest. Her suffering has ended because she had been in and out of the hospital from this and other related health issues around twenty times since 2 years ago. She was dialysing 7 times weekly because she had zero kidney function. she wasn't a transplant candidate because of her clotting disorder caused by a protein deficiancy. I see my psychologist and have support from friends and coworkers and family. I am still sad and miss her. thank you.