im taking it day by day. i hav been journaling, and been in touch with t a lot. i think the plan as of right now is that she is going to write me letters that she will give me for me to open day by day when she is gone. something to let me know that she still cares and that she isn't gone for good. that was really reassuring for me to hear, and im so glad that she would take the time to do that for me. i am also going to see her collegue while she is gone, as someone to talk to about it all, so that makes me feel better to know that i wont be completely without someone to talk to. i have run into her collegue a few times and she seems really nice. basically, we are trying to make it all as painless as possible. i hav invested energy and time into letting close RL friends know what is going on, so I am gathering a mini support group in that regard as well. I dont think its going to be easy at all, but I do think that i am going to live through it.