This happened to me. It does get better.

The more financially independent you are, the more choices you have about how to shut these people out.

Life gets a LOT better when you can choose to define your own worth and walk away from people who make you feel small or scared.

Don't date anyone yet until you have these issues settled... at least nobody who gives you that familiar doubt in the pit of your stomach...

Keep going to T and seek out people who validate your feelings. I'm so sorry you've going through this!!!!!!