Hi bubsmiley. I'm a bipolar alcoholic. Welcome to the Forum. Keep posting. Keep coming back. Don't ever give up.
There's a bunch of us here who've done all the wrong things, we've all gotten at least one thing right & most of us maybe didn't drink alcohol or do drugs today. That's a start. We've always got some hugs, and a fresh start. Coffee's harder to manager online.
Take a deep breath. You can do this.
Roadie