Just now reading this... As a survivor, I take responsibility for what I read on PC. Part of the reason I like this forum is because I spent so many years living with my sexuality being shut down. In some ways, talking about and hearing about sexual fantasies has reminded me that adult sexuality can be healthy - I do not need to be ashamed. So... I sometimes think about men and women - all ethnic groups. When I was a teenager, I used to fantasize about soap opera characters on tv, lol!