So I finally took it cause I got so bad again and at first it didnt work much and I was going to go off of it, but then I had a weird angry anxious nutsy episode in front of my husbands entire family at a bbq monday and no one knows im bipo so it was awkward and then I went home and turns out that was the night I was supposed to double my dosage so I did and Im better today. It does make me drowsy though. But I wasnt sleeping for like two or three weeks and it helped a little with that. So I totally embarassed myself yesterday, have you done that, where you snap at the people who help you most. My father in law is my main support and I was so rude to him, I dont even know why. Im so mortifed and I feel so guilty. I did the same thing to my best friend a month ago. I do and say the stupidest things to the people who are there most for me. I have no friends left besides my one friend and his wife, a lot of my relatives think im retarded or something now and doesnt talk to me, I have no one left and I act like such an idiot to those who are there. I just want to crawl into a hole and hide. I feel like no one likes me or cares. I could disappear and no one would notice.