Hi, sorry to hear that you feel so lost and alone. I know its not the same to the real life. but you have a lot of people on this site who can relate to how you feel and who care about you. I wished I could give you a proper answer..but everyone has different reasons for keeping on going. Something I find that a lot of us have in common when dealing with difficult times is holding on to our hope. The level of hope varies according to our current state of mind, but if there is only a little bit of hope left that tomorrow will be better than thats enough for me to get through today. Everything else that matters (at least to me) in life is built around hope..helping strangers, supporting our friends, fulfilling our dreams, fighting our demons..we do all of this because we hope for a better future. I'm not sure it helps but all I can say is hold on to the little bit of hope you have left and keep posting here until you feel better. There are always people here who are here for you. Feel better soon.