Hi Shayne ~ I hope you wake up to a better day today.

Things are useless, and YOU certainly are not!
If you want to be heard and you are NEVER being heard, then you need to DEMAND the right to be heard. If your mate will not be quiet long enough for you to be heard, then you need to TELL her to be QUIET long enough for you to say what it is you need to say! She needs to listen -- some people like the sound of their own voice rather than listening to what others want to say.

Perhaps that's what the problem your mate has.
You can STILL be excited about change, if you WANT to be. There are other treadmills out there -- don't give up before you even start. One bid is nothing. Keep trying -- you'll make it my friend.

It can be exciting to try to outbid someone!

Make it a game!
So you need paperwork in order to go swimming? Just look for the paperwork. You'll find it -- then you can go swimming, right? No problem. Don't give up so quickly, okay? Sometimes we have to do a little work before we get what we want.
You are NOT A FAILURE. You're a good, vital, kind human being who is needed on this earth! Whether you know it or not, you leave your mark wherever you go. You impress people! Keep going and you'll get where you want to go -- that's for sure!!
God bless you Shayne, and please take care. Hugs, Lee