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Originally Posted by sabby
Having that tug of war in your head can sure be time consuming and exhausting I'm sure. It's not all too different for us singletons at times you know. When something comes along that we need to figure out, we, too have different thoughts, pros and cons and feelings at different times as well before we make decisions. They may sound different to a multiple or have different degrees of exhaustion etc, but they can be very similar as well. I said that because I wanted you to know that we all struggle at one time or another in that realm.
Would it be possible for all of you to compromise? How about going every other week to therapy instead of every single week so that you can get some other work done? I think it's important that you still go to therapy. I wonder too if you are looking for some excuses to not go? Could that be possible?
Have you talked with t about this at all? I think if you do, you may get some help from t in making your decision.
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Before I became aware that I had alters I would just tell the voice/thought that wanted to continue therapy "enough" and stop therapy. It always felt like the voice/thought would just cross their arms and sit waiting until we returned to therapy. At least that was my visual in my head. I thought everyone went through similar dialogue in their head. Over the last year or so I have gotten to know my parts in more detail. So it is not so easy to say enough and move on. But I do understand that everyone has tough decisions to make and have to go through a similar process in their head. Just without separate parts. I think it is good advise to have a conversation with my t about the conflict, but I already know she does not think I should stop therapy. I haven't told anyone else about my DID so I am left to make this decision on my own. And yes to your last question. There is a part of me that constantly looks for reasons to stop therapy. That is what makes this decision so difficult I can't seem to sort out the true motivation. I am needed to get the job done and can't be popping in and out because of therapy but another part of me is saying I am using Sandy as an excuse to bail on therapy. And around and around I go. For now I think I will continue to go to therapy until I have clear decision. One were we all agree on. This is the only thing I can do right now. But a big part of me is not happy about this.