I have OCD. there are triggers. those cause panic attacks. my parents went on and on about little things that I do to try to avoid those triggers. that apparently get in the way of them living their lives (apparently i dont see it). my t, instead of trying to work things out, told them that they shouldn't dance around my triggers. that i have to deal with reprecussions of it all.

so she is setting me up to hav daily freak outs, but then she is going away. she isn't going to help me when those things to do happen. and when they do, its out of control. i hav no coping mechanisms to deal with the panic and the flowing emotions. then its between me ruining the house, or SI-ing, or whatever. and she isn't there to help me through it.

i do pick up the pieces as best as i can. i compulse. but she is saying taht i can't even do that anymore. so where am i left now? everyone always does this to me. they ruin my life when things are going fine, and then they aren't there to help me deal with the pain and panic and the hurt that comes with it. they are fine attacking me, but they aren't wiling to deal with the consequences. its like teasing a lion. at some point, they are going to snap and attack back.