Good luck in your efforts, I'm in the exact same boat! Its hard for me to find reasons to stop sometimes, but I'm lucky to have a very caring boyfriend who helps me push on, and it sounds like you do too! Cutting has always been my way of dealing with emotions, but I'm realizing there are better ways to cope.

Have you seen the post at the top of the Self Injury forum? It has a list of other things to do than self harm and I think its pretty helpful!

I wish you the best! I hope we can both push through this