Dear FM,

I was so glad to see you today. Thank you for holding me for such a long, long time, and alleviating my little girl fears about the coming holidays. I was so confident when I made the decision about flying home, and then spoke to the parents. Now I feel like a storm drenched scarety-cat. Ha, ha - heres to adulthood! I wish I could just send the kingager. Nah, I would miss him too much. I need my baby with me for these last few holidays. Soon, some beautiful young woman will want him to spend the holidays with her family, and I will understand. I'll be okay FM flying home. I have lots of hours to prepare with you. Holding me - lots!

We planned on your reading today. It didn't happen, again. As you said your not going anywhere, neither is the book. Instead we had lots of laughing holding, and cuddling. I'm going to miss it when I'm away. I have plans for my friend in Boston to hold me either there or in New York City, my SIL in Virginia, and I'm getting up the nerve to ask dad - the hardest, nevertheless, I want to get to the asking stage. Mom will be so left out. I just don't feel any warmth with her - yet. I will at least try to sit next to her.

Also, thanks again for your feedback on my post re: your thank you. It was comforting to hear what you said about the people that were of a different opinion. It had to do with them and their issues, not about me. Also, thank you for pointing out the positive feedback I got. In my past life I always threw out the good, and focused on the what I perceived as the negative. You were there to remind me not to do that. You said you were really proud of my thread, and that means so much to me!

Thanks FM. I love you a lot!

GTGT