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Originally Posted by granite1
my T says i should be able to notice when i am checking out orhiding in my head filled with thoughts. not wanting to deal and all.so here i am feeling foggy wanting to hide and i can notice this.i am confused and wanting to SI to make myself more calm and focused .now what does she want me to do with this awairness that is healthy .i cant seem to write much at all in my journal in fact havnt been able to do this for weeks usually i write for a few hours a day .but now ? nope. so i sit with this i dont act on the urges and yes i can say it will eventually pass,and it will or grow huger and i can no longer deal and hubby takes ovewr and demands a visit to clinic. but what else is ther but to feel this horrible. why do i want to ? i don't and why cant my T fix it ,i sure as heck cant seem to .i am overwelmed feeling this is it miserable .it sux. ill get off my soap box now and go back into hiding  |
(((Granite)))
Please, please STAY on your soapbox
It looks like you have the first part of mindfulness down, and although it doesn't fell like progress, it is
When you fail to act on your urges, you say it will eventually pass, and the power you will feel from that will help maintain this behavior, it is just getting to that point first! It is miserable, and it does suck, I am in complete agreement with that. Staying on your soapbox instead of hiding is a good idea
This is a difficult process, it took awhile for you to get to this point, please be patient with yourself, so really deserve that. You deserve that have this go away without such a struggle, and if I could make that happen, I would. You deserve to have people who care, and I do and I know alot of other people are with me on that. We are NOT giving up on you, so don't give up on yourself
