I'm sloooooowly learning to accept this as a part of life. The idea of pregnancy scares me to death...........well, not really the pregnancy, but the act that's required to become pregnant. I'm disgusted by the idea that people I know have done this act. I know my view is skewed but that's the way it is.......I am so ashamed of myself and the way I think and feel sometimes. It's like you said, I have this image of being guilty of thinking and feeling a certain way. And, not to mention even talking about this kind of thing!
I, too, am involved in my church, and it makes what I'm going through extra hard. I heard all my life to not let myself go "that" route. Not to entertain thoughts of a certain nature, if you know what I mean. So, it makes this phase I'm going through super difficult..............Thanks for posting......It's nice to know I'm not alone