I don't always fall in with the crowd either, although you might think I do.
Glad you are finding a way to be yourself here, I try too..... with much trial, error, and stung paws
PS Wow. I could have written the second part of your new "hobbies" myself
I have only recently changed my "gender" on my bio from "no" back to female..... some tiny progress possibly
I always look for intent and I know in my heart i have never intended to hurt anyone. I have said that before so will not bother again. My stepmother's abuse was based to a significant extent on accusing me of doing things I never did.
sigh