I don't intend on bringing everyone down, but you asked the question, I will give my honest answer. I don't believe that I smiled once today, and yes, I was among people, my family and their friend. We all went out to eat at a restaurant. I felt like a zombie, as I always do, did not engage in conversation like I never do, no one spoke directly to me, as they always don't, and I felt like **** the whole time.

I have not thought of anything "good" today, and I never think of anything "good" again because I don't think in terms of good or bad. I think in terms of cause and effect. You say "good", I say there was a feeling of pleasure triggered in the brain that is not even real.