I've already posted, but I just want to say I've been trying to keep up and have been reading all of your posts. I am sorry you guys. It won't help any but I'm sorry you have all had to experience this.

CastlesInTheAir yes you described what I've been feeling all along: dead. And Girlshawn I feel invisible too.

I feel like no one cares that I exist, and I have a small story. At work on Friday, I was trying to do my best even though I felt like I was being treated unfairly with the distribution of the work (it seems like they are always handing me all the crap because they know I will put up with it). And I was asking a co-worker to help me with a page and I was standing their beside her desk and noticed it was going to be awhile for her to come across the solution so I shy-ly said: "I'm just going to go back over to my desk now..." Then she looks at me and says, "Oh were you still standing there? (she's laughing)". It's like I might as well not even ****ing exist. Why do I bother? No one sees me, hears me, or cares. I hate everything and just want to truly not exist any more.