To almostangela:
“You want to move to California, but can't see how you can do that without this big gob of money you were promised. Well, the money hasn't come yet and may be a while because you can't hurry destiny, but by putting you on a different path, you can find another way to get there.”

Yeah, very possibly. BTW, I want to get OUT of California, not move TO it. I miss the change of seasons terribly. I want to be in New England, or maybe upstate Michigan?

“Big requests require big changes. Hang in there. In a year from now you will look back and say that losing your job was the best thing that could have happened to you.”

Yeah, maybe. When I’m in a bad situation, I try to think of what my perception of it could be a year in advance. Helps give me perspective. I hope this time next year I don’t recognize my life, so much good change has come. I’m not stressing out over this firing (yet). I’m glad to get out of there. Of course, I don’t have much savings, and unemployment doesn’t pay much, so I can’t afford to be unemployed for too long. Still, anything could happen.

”Is it just the money you want, or freedom, or lifestyle, or??”

Lifestyle, absolutely. Money will help me make that out of state move, though.

To desirae:
“I hope you find your strength to venture out and find your own good stuff.”

Thanks. I’ll try. I’m nothing if not tenacious.

To perna:
“When I feel stuck I try to remember I believe that everyone who comes into our life each day is there for a purpose, has a ‘message’ for us. Trying to figure out why someone shows up in my life and says/does a certain thing at a certain time more than makes me feel blessed and cared for.”

I try to remember that everyone/everything that comes into my life is there for a purpose, too. Baffles me, though, when they’re mean or bad. Makes it hard to imagine what the purpose was (like I haven't taken enough abuse already?). And certainly doesn’t make ME feel blessed and cared for…

Thanks, guys.