Actually, I did take a pill to "dull" and "calm" for a while. I didn't want to take it though as I am not one to look for a high or answer in drugs.

Unfortunately with me, I developed PTSD in my brain and I was so overwhelmed with sudden flashbacks and extreme anxiety that I could not function. As most who struggle with it know, it is so scary and confusing when we can't seem to control our brain all of a sudden and don't understand "why". And it is even worse when people around you are so damn ignorant that they make a lot of "hurtful" remarks like "I have had bad things happen to me too, ya just gotta stop dwelling and deal better".

I think the best thing, more than a pill perhaps is to find a way to get rid of the "igorance" in people that don't respect the challenge of someone who is genuinely struggling with their brain somehow.

I am grateful that at least I live in a time where we are learning so much about the brain and can actually "see" the pathology present in many who struggle with what we deem "mental illness".

One of the things that I have learned is that it isn't just that we may have survived a trama or years of abuse, it is that all that stress and emotional challenge often "does some damage to the health of the human brain". If anything, perhaps a medication that can truely help to repair the cells that have been damaged leaving the brain more "sensitive" and "less able to regulate and balance the ebb and flow of our emotional reactions to life's challenges".

I don't think "ignorance is bliss" really all we have to do is observe all the unrest around us and throughout our history of man to know, ignorance leads to waste.

Open Eyes