Yes, my T has helped soooo much. I hate that I didn't see her last week and I've forgotten to schedule a appointment this week. Unfortunately, after all my talk yesterday, I had a relasp (as I like to call it) today.

I hope you don't mind if I share this on your thread but I'm hoping you can relate to the 'grizzle'. I was getting my children ready for school in the morning and I was late. I was late because 'I' hit snooze too many times. So, when my mother arrived to watch the non-school going kids while I went to college, she realized I wasn't even close to being ready and had to leave in 10 minutes. I get soo frustrated because she's trying to help but it irritates me. She says things like, "Ya know, you should have the kids lay out there clothes at night' and things of that nature. Well, I'm just trying to get out the door, I have to stay focused and it wasn't because the clothes were laid out, I was late because "I" slept in too long. Then she says she should have called me this morning (which irritates me, she tried to do that last sememster but ultimately, it's my responsibility to get my behind out of bed).... anyway, she tries to give me another pointer on making things eaiser in the morning and I caught myself being short with her. I did stop and say, 'Mom, I don't mean to be short with you but I understand that would help but I'm late because I slept in'.... Then she comes back with 'Well, if I talked to you like that, you'd go balistic on me' in a snotty, whiney sorta voice....

Well, I just exploded. I can't even remember the things I said now but I know I was nasty then walked into hall and head butted the wall (my head still hurts). Then she says, oh, that will help'. And I yell back... 'Yes, it did, you outta try it sometime... I wonder who taught me that little trick.... you or dad'

Well, anyway.... we haven't discussed it anymore between each other... just go on pretending that didn't happen this morning.... I'm angry with myself because I allowed myself to snap. It was silly and stupid and I'm embarrased everytime I act that way......

Ok... WOW.... TMI, huh? *sigh* well, for me it helped to spill it.....