You may never be truly "stable". That doesn't mean you will not be able to handle it. But I don't feel like repeating what I said before.

Get your **** together. Work on dealing with the bumps rather then numbing yourself with in the end is a downer and will screw up with your moods even worse.

also... when going on meds... you either take them as you should, or not at all. On and off will screw up with your chemistry even further.