The deeper question is ... Why do I attempt to sabotage my own recovery process? It's not my therapist's responsibility to "fix" or change me. That responsibility is mine and mine alone.

Nevertheless, a therapist can certainly provide me with a safe, supportive environment in which to explore why I do the things I do while providing me with helpful information and input along the way.

For better or worse, whatever I choose to do with any (or all) of that is totally up to me.